May 2011
No matter how careful you are, there’s going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn’t experience it all. There’s that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should have been paying attention. Well get used to that feeling. That’s how your whole life will feel like someday.
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| — | Chuck Palahniuk (via pavorst) |
Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. And intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you’ll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way
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| — | White Oleander (via notsoplainemilyjane) |
Go and get a job. Go and find a flat. Find somebody else. Put them in the flat. Make them stay. Get a toaster. Go to work. Get on the bus. Look at your boss. Say ‘fuck.’ Sit down. Pick up the thing. Go blank. Scream internally. Go home. Listen to the radio. Look at the other person and think why, why did this happen? Go to bed. Lie awake at night! Get up. Feel groggy. Put your things on—your clothes, whatever they’re called. Go out the door, into work. Same thing, same people again. It’s real, it is happening to you. Go home again! Sit, radio, dinner, mmm, GARDENING GARDENING GARDENING death.
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| — | Dylan Moran (via annachibi) |
